More about mike…  (wala lang.. i just wanted to take a look at what made me like him...eewww!!! here i go again...being so lovesick...)

we shared so much while I was still working at G.E…in fact, I had an officemate that also had a thing for him and someone told me that she was so jealous because I was close to mike… almost like we were a couple.. (hehe) anyway, every break or lunch, he never forgets to invite me to have it with him… and he doesn't invite anyone else.. laging "tara jel, let's have lunch" or "tara, let's have coffee" J ano pa ba… oh, we always...ALWAYS talk..all the time.. na lahat na ng tao sa paligid namin naiistorbo na namin…when we got our first pay, he invited me to check it out at the nearest atm machine… dapat ako lang eh, kso anpao heard that we were gonna check it so he invited her also…(sayang!)  and oh.. when the 2nd pay got in, the other people asked him if he's gonna check it out ulit sa nearest atm..they were kind of hoping na isabay sila ni mike...but sorry na lang sila, hindi siya pumayag kasi he wanted to rest lang for the break... anyway, tapos, we went to the nearest mcdo to get food…and we only had an hour so talagang nagmamadali kami while we ate our food at his car sa parking lot… hahaha… syempre, when we got at the office, all of them were wondering why we got in late… haha..after, we all headed to the mall to have our first get-together…so while other people figured out a way how they will go there. he on the other hand, let us (us meaning me and my close friends) ride with him sa car niya… J anyway, when we arrived at the mall, he parked his car somewhere so me, anpao, thins and alex went to the supermarket to buy batteries for my digicam…nung tapos na kame, I called him up through his cellphone…ayaw niya sagutin…instead, he called me up…which I think is nice…J  anyway, we also shared my earphones for an activity we did…what happened was, everyone else were given earphones for the activity and since we were the persons at the last row, naubusan kaming dalawa…(what are the odds of it!) haha… anyway, so I told him na we'll just share the one that's for my phone…ang sweet nga nung nangyari kse since the cpus were at the floor, we had to bow down low  na magkatabi yung head namin with each other because the wires for my earphones were short… we even had to start our videos at the same time so every time we were about to play it, laging meron : "ok 1, 2, 3" hahaha… it was sweet I guess.. and we were laughing all the time…hehe..

since he has law school and work to juggle, he is almost always tired so there were times that he was sooo sleepy… so what he'll do is to sleep at his table and let me wake him if anything comes up… tapos there was a time that his boss went to our place and I was waking him up and it took him like a few seconds to get up and his boss saw that he was sleeping! after his meeting with the boss, I told him what happened and we both laughed about it… so he kind of learned from it so he just made me help him stay alert…to help him, one of our co-workers told him that he should have his hand massaged to wake up his nerves or something…dapat si janno (our gay co-worker; the one who told the hand massage) ang mag-mamassage ng hands niya but since he was sitting a table away from him, sabi niya ako na lang daw ang mag massage sa kanya.. J so I massaged him… J oh… then there was a time when we headed to the floor, we made it a point that we sat beside each other…the day after, we also had to go sa floor again, so he got there first but when I was about to go to the table beside him, our co-worker who had a crush on him rushed to my place and sat beside him, so I had no choice but to transfer to another table…after our work, I went by his cubicle and "fetched" him…what happened was:

mike: "where were you? I've been looking for you eh. diba we were supposed to sit beside each other?"

me: "huh? yeah I know.. but when I got there nandun na si ethel sa cubicle ko so I had no choice but to move to another place. why?"

mike: "oh I see…kasi I got somewhat violated eh.. di kasi tayo magkatabi.."

me: "what?!? why do you feel violated? labo naman nun.."

mike: "basta…"

I was wearing a cute outfit that time… (hindi para magpa-cute ng todo sa kanya but I just felt like wearing it..) he even noticed that…it's the little things that I do just because I feel like doing it like having my bangs blow dried so that it can fall on my forehead and some other stuff that he takes note of J

I lent him a dvd like months ago and he told me that he'll return it when I go back sa office to get my clearance done…but I've already finished my clearance wala pa rin sa kin ung video.. so I told alex na ipaabot na lang sa kanya kse we always meet up naman at times…sabi ni alex ayaw daw niya…and he was always asking for my address…sabi daw niya kasi he's going to bring it here sa house… J J J

last week was so special..i got to help him review for his final exams..i got to show him how much i can take from him without complaing.. we had a report that we had to prepare by ourselves and it was his finals week also.. talk about pressure.. so while we were doing our reports, he was asking me stuff about his topic..sobrang pressured na kasi sya so i volunteered to help him out with his topic.. tapos he told me na i should learn how to say no.. then he went out to ask people around about his topic then when he came back, he gave me a piece of chocolate..

sabi nya: "o, yan..sa yo yan"

me: "huh? why? ayoko..no thanks"

him: "sige na. i really got that for you"

me: "ok..thanks" i said coldly

him: "wow napaka-appreciative nung tone mo ah.." he said sarcastically while laughing

me: "huh? hindi.. i appreciate it.. it's just that i'm not in the mood for chocolates lang.. but i appreciate it"

then silence..kailangan mag work e

then after a short while (everyone was silently doing work) he turned to me and said

him: "hey..thank you"

me: "what for?"

him: "for everything. thanks talaga ha.. i don't know how you can deal with me..you've been so patient kasi"

i shrugged and said  "nah.. it was nothing.. i like helping people..lalo na when i see them being eaten up by pressure" then he smiled at me and returned working..

then i helped him review for his exam..but he was messed up so i told him to sleep first before he do the stuff he had to do.. kasi ba naman he had like a hundred cases to write as in literally copy word per word handwritten pa sa yellow pad.. i volunteered nga to do the writing kaso it was required na it should be their handwritting..not somebody else's..sabi nya nga sayang kasi knowing na archi grad ako maganda daw for sure ang handwritting ko..haha..anyway, tapos, he had to review pa for 2 exams..and he was able to prepare a reviewer naman..so nag-aral kami during breaks..i read the other paper , he studied the other one..tapos after work, we both stayed a while sa room para mag-review..

after i asked him the questions...

him (ranting and worrying): "oh no.. i was soo bad..bagsak na ko!"

me: "hindi noh. you did good.. at least you were able to memorize most of it."

him: "ano ka ba!?! hindi mo ba nabasa yung reviewer eh sobrang nag-imbento lang ako most of the time"

me: "hello!?! sira ka pla eh..eh kung yan ang iniisip mo, babagsak ka nga..i'm just telling you na kaya mo yan.. you really just have to get some sleep kasi you're gonna ace it naman eh.. kailangan mo lang talaga ng pahinga"

my friends were complaining na nga kse we were suppossed to go home all together kso nga he asked me to help him muna.. they understood naman lalo na yung sa kin kse they knew about my thing for him..hehe..tapos i told him to sleep muna before he goes to school..

me: "matulog ka kasi walang mangyayari sa yo at sa inaral mo kung wala kang pahinga"

him: "oo nga eh.. kaso ang dami ko pang gagawin..sobrang worried na ko sa totoo lang..kaya ko kaya?"

me: "eh bat kasi nag-cram ka?"

him: "ewan ko nga kung anong nangyari sa kin eh kung bakit ako nag cram"

me: "basta matulog ka..gusto mo after 1 1/2 hours gisingin kita? i'll call your cell para magising ka"

him: "sge kaso low bat na ko"

us (as in sabay haha): "bat! palit tyo!"

then we handed our batteries and discovered that we have different ones..

him: "nako pano yan?"

me: "you want to borrow my phone muna? i'm going home naman so i can charge your phone"

him: "uy grabe ka naman..ok lang wag na..ang mahal kaya ng phone mo hindi ko kaya palitan yan in case may mangyari dyan"

me: "exagg ka naman..eh ang laki ng pay mo kayang-kaya mo na mag down ng car 3 pays lang!"

him: "haha..sira! hindi noh! hindi na..i'll just alarm my watch..for sure maririnig ko naman to"

we almost exchanged phones para lang magising siya..the next day he thanked me..

him: "uy jel! thank you! thank you! thank you! thank you sa prayers mo and sa tulong mo! galing sobra! effective!"

he thanked me kasi isa lang daw yung mali niya sa exam..he even told me na he'll treat us out pag pumasa siya sa lahat ng exams niya..sabay hirit yung friend ko: "wag na mo na kami isama.. hindi naman kami tumulong sa yo, si jel lang naman ang tumulong so siya na lang ang i-treat mo kasi she deserves the credit.." hahahaha..thanks jesy!

anyway, saturday, he asked me if i knew how to sing..

him: "you're an artist right? so dapat may talent ka rin sa music..marunong ka kumanta?" i said yes..then he asked me if i was good.. i said: "i think so..hahaha" then he told me: "kasi i'm impressed with girls na maganda ang singing voice" then he asked me what was my favorite song..i told him:"tatooed on my mind" then he asked me to sing it for him kasi di raw niya alam yun..i just laughed out loud..kasi naman it was a funny thing to ask..pero nung nagkita ulit kami, inulit na naman niya yun.. hindi pa rin ako kumanta..i just hummed..hahaha

yes.. I AM A WWE FAN!..and i just watched ROYAL RUMBLE in SM Southmall.. haha.. i just couldn't wait for the weekend screening and for the tv screening.. hello!?! next year pa un sa tv!!! hahaha.. i went with my bro and 2 of my ex-coworkers..na addict rin sa wrestling.. JOEY and ALEX.. (note: don't confuse alex as a guy friend.. she is a girl.. so don't you guys think that i spent the evening with 3 guys..although 1 of the boys ako..hehe)

so yun.. ang saya.. bago mag main event which is the royal rumble itself, there were 3 fights muna.. yung fight ni test vs. bobby lashley for the ecw championship belt, batista vs. mr. kennedy for the wwe world heavyweight title and the last man standing match for the wwe title and that was between john cena and umaga..

and wow! lahat ng fights sobrang galing.. exciting..lalo na yung kay john cena! action packed! mega sigaw nga kme sa movie house e..hehehe

after, syempre we all went home na.. masaya..hehe yun lang!

dated oct. 11, 2006 (i was sick when i wrote this..lovesick eww!! hahaha! so please excuse my mushy tone)

for today, we still discussed the systems that we'll be using and for some reason, there where parts of the day that got so unusual..

like him talking about the girl he is "sorta" (and i hope not!) courting..he was having a lot of trouble just pleasing this person..sabi nga niya they still keep in touch pero malabo daw talaga yung girl..major pakipot!..and may hindrance pa..yung religion niya.. oh well..feeling ko nga while we were talking about it, nahahalata niya ata na i got upset or something..kasi naman pareho silang stupid..the girl is stupid because of the fact tht she's making this very ideal guy miserable..she doesn't know how fucking lucky she is and that i wish that i were in her place instead..nakakainis..ang tanga tanga..if she likes him, i don't know what the hell's wrong with her..she's making someone's life miserable..siya naman..ang tanga rin..hindi maka-gets na maybe kaya hindi siguro mag-work out yung gusto niya kasi hindi lang talaga meant mangyari..tapos sabi niya alam niya raw na like rin siya nung girl kasi daw sinasabi raw ng friends niya sa kanya..and nafee-feel raw niya..pero if the girl really likes him, bakit hindi maging sila?..weird! sabi ko nga maybe he needs to get a wake up call and realize that..hat he should just forget about it and move on because he's just missing a lot of things..halos 1 year na ata yun..and he even told me na he'll still see if maybe it would work out when they do get together on a date a couple of weeks from now..pero may problem pa rin..kasi within that week, finals na niya sa school..so good luck!..i got so upset when we were talking about that..well, being a "listener" and objective person (i think! hehe!) and realist, i told him na he shouldn't waste time on things that aren't worth the effort..(kung pwede ko lang sabihin na..ako na lang..hehe.. but then again) which by the way, he kind of agreed..di raw niya alam if worth it pa raw yung effort na ginagawa niya dun sa girl.. i told him na pag-isipan niya..

anyway, then the topic shifted to thins..kasi she transferred to another seat..tapos people close to her (as in literally close) asked her the reason why she transferred..she got so upset about it..she was kind of "masungit" kanina..tapos yun..she sent me an email ranting out about the people that she got irritated with..(which by the way includes mike..)  and heto namang magaling na lawyer na to he "accidentally" read some parts of the message and because he's very matalino, he figured out everything that was in the message..well, yung concerning him lang naman but still!..eh the reason why thins got so praning with him is because naiingayan raw siya kay mike..nakalagay pa nga sa letter na kung straight raw ba siya or hinde kasi she has never met any straight guy na sobrang talkative like him! well, it's partly my fault kse ako lang naman ang dinadaldal niya..so because of that, we just wrote down what we had to say on paper..that was soo funny..and nakakakilig! hehe..or was it because we were so talkative na hindi na talaga namin maiwasan na hindi mag-usap na kahit magsulat sa paper gagawin namin.. hehe.. he got so bothered by the email that it affected him for the rest of the day..sabi niya he wasn't setting a good example daw that's why it was his fault.. then i replied na hayaan na lang niya, that it's no big deal.. then he thanked me for sharing my "family issues" with him..and that he appreciated the "engaging conversations".. then i thanked him too for listening to my nonsense..tapos he reiterated the moral of what happened..na yun nga na he wasn't setting an example blah blah..then i joked about myself..that i'm gonna shut up na so that i would learn and stuff..tas he reacted and wrote..WRONG! that means that we have to participate more especially you,because you have a nice and crisp way of talking.. (WTF!! isang malaking joke!) then i wrote NAH! tapos hindi pa nakuntento..sinabi pa niya ulit..ang labo!! (pero kinikilig..hahha)bwiset siya..tapos sinabi pa niya na may kamukha raw akong artista..tapos ang corny nung sinabi niyang artista..si tina paner raw! haha..ni hindi ko na nga alam kung ano itsura nun..tapos binawi si chinchin guttierez daw pala..argh!!! ayoko na tumabi dun..good luck! tapos nag take pala kami ng picture sa phone ng friend namin pero binura niya.. leche! hehe..

the day i discovered that my ideal guy existed.. (talk about being sappy and dramatic!) dated sometime october 2006

who do you prefer more? ...

      the guy who has the looks and body that all girls would die for or the one who has the brains, charm and an outstanding character?

there was a time that i thought that all the good ones were gone and taken.. but then again..

i first met him during my 1st day at GE (but that day was their 2nd) my 1st impression about him that he is a leader and that he already had previous work experience.. and since i feel so left-out kse that was my first, feel ko na parang in a way he was also snobbish..that i won't get a chance to know him.. but ever since that day, i've aldready noticed his "greatness" (haha!) and that made him interesting..but after so many days of my absence (2 days to be exact) I didn't see him na so i thought that he probably belonged to another group.. but to my surprise come monday, he entered the  room where my group was and sat beside me at the back of the room..(siguro kaya dun ako pinaupo sa likod kse it was meant na we're gonna have something.. ano kaya yun? hehe)

anyway, it started with the usual.. we exchanged hi's and hello's and made sure that we remebered each other's names.. we had a lot of fun (well, at least i had) even though we only spent the entire day reading boring stuff about work..we talked about a lot of things.. most of the time he did all the talking.. i was (and still i am) amazed about the fact that he is a freshman at law school..in SAN BEDA ALABANG..( i swear.. law students make me weak in the knees!.. yes.. i know ..cheesy!)

anyway, we kind of have a lot in common..

we both love working under pressure.. and we function better when we work under pressure.. (but i now discovered that i handle it better than him) of course.. both of our schools won the championships. NCAA and UAAP..he even showed me a video he captured when he watched a live game..

he's a lot of fun in a sorta nerdy and intellectual way..as days, passed, we kept on conversing ang connecting like we have known each other forever..he even talks about his lessons in law school (as if i understand a thing)..

because of his amazing character, i didn't know that i was liking him subconsiously..guys like him are a major turn on for me.. i love his wit, his unusual sense of humor, his attitude towards what he does, his drive about the things he is passionate about.. just trying to list  them down makes me smile..naisip ko nga na he's the kind of guy i would want to introduce to my family and relatives..but i hate feeling this way..the way i smile about the fact that i get "kilig" whenever we talk, joke around,"race"and just for simply seating beside each other..

but there's still this feeling of disappointment.. because he might not like me..sa lahat talaga ng ng pwedeng ma-feel, ito ang pinaka ayaw ko ksi i can't do anything about it. gustong-gusto mo na yung tao pero hindi naman alam nung taong yun na gusto mo siya or worse..baka hindi ka niya gusto for himself..

kung malalaman ko lang kung ano ang gusto nya sa for a girl, baka siguro nagpa"sikat" na ko sa kanya..ang hirap ng ganitong feeling.. this is one of those times that i hate being a girl..

being a girl means that you can't make a move on someone you like..

 it makes me a bit sad whenever i see him with the other people closer to his age.. kasi naman kahit na 4 years lang ang age gap namin parang there's still so much to fill in..i don't like guys that are of the same age as i am because they are almost always imature and stupid..pero siya..he's all i've ever asked or (as corny and cliche' this may sound) dreamed of..i love guys that are driven, ambitious, passionate and intelligent..minsan pag nag-uusap kami nahihiya ako kasi hindi ko alam kung i'm still making sense..hay nako! i hate the way he makes me feel so insecure..pero dahil dun he makes me want him more..

haha..and he makes me better..he's one of the reasons why i can firmly say that i will pursue my career as an architect.. but the thing is, if i decide that i will pursue my career now, that would mean that i would have to resign and leave GE..and that means..that i would be leaving him too.. (hahaha!! as if!) nakakainis!  nakakainis siya! kasi isa siya sa napaka pili at konting guys na nagpafeel sa kin na ang weak at tanga ko.. weak and tanga=me being emotional.. because being emotional for me is a sign of weakness) and siya lang ang katangi-tangi na nagpa-feel sa kin nito for just a few days lang.. exagg! hay nako!

the coolest job ever!! (well if there is such a job)..and a whole lotta more

I was able to watch the night at the museum and i think larry's job (larry played by ben stiller) is the coolest job ever!..haha..i think guarding the museum of natural history that comes to life at night is a trip!.. and i want to have a shot at it.. kulit! you guys have to watch the film.. it's sooo much fun! larry's job as the night guard is much more fun than working at a call center during the graveyard shift.. (kse nga the night guard works the same time like the call center agents..) it has so much adventure..you'll learn pa..and you won't take crap from foreigners.. haha.. just the diorama dudes, the stuffed animals, the china statues and the trex.. hahahaha..

enough about the film.. i just wanna tell you a ridiculus story about my relatives.. actually, hindi ko pla relatives yun kse hindi ko sila ka-dugo...eww.. hahaha.. again, i am being a bitch and suplada again.. haha.. but trust me, if you were in my place, you would do the same.. (if you were in my place meaning if you're also suplada.. haha)

so, yesterday was the 40th day of our lolo's death so we offered a mass for him and had dinner at dad's.. when we got to megamall, we were like 15 mins late for our reservation and the receptionist gave away our slot.. so syempre, my tita got furious kse she wasn't informed that if we were 15 mins late, they will be forced to give that slot to another party.. kso the stupid thing the receptionist did was she didn't even try to appease my tita and offered her us to wait..so all of us (well, us kids..) just pretended that we were irate.. eh me and my other cousin were wearing corporate attires (well, me because of my interview and her because she got off from school) so we pretended that we had a hectic day at our offices and i pretended to have cancelled a meeting with AYALA for this dinner just to find out that our reservation was bumped off.. hahaha.. anyway, so we all just decided to transfer to the other dad's along edsa..(and that was way far pa kse it was near greenhills..so wow.. the traffic along edsa and our grumbling stomachs just made it more somewhat irritating) but before we went to the other dad's, i bought a box of krispy kreme doughnuts because i've been craving for those for like a week! so my cousin accompanied me..tapos when we got to the car, that ridiculously annoying boy (he's the son of the "new" probinsyanang bisaya wife of my loser of a tito) wanted to grab a doughnut.. like hello!! why would i give him one!?!?! i bought those doughnuts for me, my brother and for my mom.. tapos i was pretending not to hear him make kulit.. in bisaya for crying out loud!.. i was busy talking to my cousin about work and stuff.. and oh, hindi lang pala yun yung time na nakakairita yung kid.. while we were on our way to dad's he was all giddy like he has never been to a mall and he was making kulit about us eating out.. well, kse naman it's like not everyday that they go out and eat nga naman.. so yun.. you can just imagine how he acts.. you know, like how we perceive probinsyanos act in a city.. as in.. just like that!

yes.. i know.. i'm mean..

so, we got to the other dad's along edsa, so we stuffed ourselves with food.. sa magpipinsan, ako lang ang nag blue plate.. kasi naman i was the only one who eats japanese food..(well, if my brother was with us he'd probably be having the same plate too)  i never got to the pinoy stuff.. i just got kuhol kse i missed eating those weird looking creatures.. anyhoo, so yun, i ate and ate.. and syempre we were all given free stuffed animals.. and as expected, nagpaka-probinsyano na naman yung kid.. lalo na yung mom.. grabe! nakakahiya! her kid na nga was so irritating kse he kept on getting our stuffed animals while we were eating, tapos after we ate, the bisaya mom made a scene pa about the toys!.. kasi she made a count daw of how many of us were given a toy..tapos the waiter daw didn't give my loser of a tito one.. as in..nakakahiya.. eh her voice pa naman was so loud.. buti na lang there were no people left dining kse the place was about to close.. as in nakakahiya!! so the waiter had no choice but to give her another toy.. exagg!!!! so when we were driving them all home, the annoying kid kept on getting my dad's toy as if his wasn't enough..eh my dad wanted to keep it for himself kse he wanted to put it sa car nya..tapos when we arrived at their place, my cousin who was beside me went down to get her resume kse i was going to give it to my friend who's working at starbucks so my door was still opened..tapos the kid rushed in front and was grabbing my bag of doughnuts!!! argh!!!! i pretended that i didn't notice kse i was waiting for my cousin.. tapos buti na lang my loser of a tito got the annoying kid out of the car..  so, when we went home na, my dad asked me why i didn't give the kid a doughnut.. nagpalusot na lang ako.. i told him na that the doughnuts were boxed and i didn't have a tissue paper to wrap it.. tapos he asked me pa how much i spent for the doughnuts.. tapos he got surprised kse ang expensive daw.. well, i just told him that it was all worth it.. (and IT IS!!) i mean come on! why would i give that boy a P40 worth of doughnut?!? that is krispy kreme for crying out loud!!! if he wants one, why won't his loser stepdad buy him one! ay oo nga pala.. he's too tamad to look for a job so that's why he has no money, no career, no place of his own kaya yan he's stucked living sa house ng lola ko... oh actually lahat pala sila dun nakatira.. and my loser of a tito together with his probinsyanong bisaya wife and kid live somewhere in the visayas kse dun raw nagwo-work yung loser.. anyway, so yun nga, as i've said, lahat sila dun nakatira..

look..5 silang siblings.. that's my tito, 2 titas (old and still single), my loser tito and my dad..

the eldest (which is my tito who is not a loser) has 2 kids and thank God they are grown ups na.. (eh lahat naman kami grown ups na) my kuya ian is based in pampanga so he lives there.. (but right now he is staying there for some reason) my ate jessa naman lives there also but her kid stays with the dad.. (oh by the way, she got pregnant way to early and got married because of the pregnancy and now they are now separated.) and by the way, my tito got separated with his wife a long time ago..

tapos my fiscal tita..well, she's not yet married..so she just somewhat adopted my cousin na kid ng loser kong tito..

then my dad.. siya lang ang nakapagbukoid sa kanilang lahat.. well, that's thanks to my mom..if i know, kung hndi yung mom ko ang napangasawa nya, i bet he'll also opt to live there..and now i can totally say that me and my brother are so lucky because my mom is very particular having our own house stuff..
but hey, their marriage got annuled just like recently..so you guys may be getting the vibe that my oddities and rage and what have you may have come from this "tragedy".. maybe i did get it from this experience..let's face it, dealing with annulment or separation is not that easy whether you're young or old enough to realize it that it can happen to anyone.. but understanding it, well, that takes a lot of guts.. but hey! let's not get into that.. i don't like being pitied on because i don't feel sorry for myself for experiencing this..i can actually say that i am a better person because of it..but enough about me..

then my loser tito naman.. just like his brothers, got separated rin from his wife.. but, before they got separated, they had like (wait.. im'm still counting!) 5 kids!.. my kuya jeben, ate christine, sarah, aileen (she's the one that my tita adopted) and cecil..they all live there too.. well, except for my loser tito and his probinsyanang wife and kid which they claim they live far in the visayan region..

then my other tita naman.. well, is still single.. but she's going to migrate in canada this summer..and dahil dito kaya sila nagkaka"problem" sa house.. kse my tita (the fiscal) borrowed 150 thou from her.. ngayon that my tita is going to canada, she needs the money to buy hey plane tickets and other stuff.. so my fiscal tita sold her car but it wasn't enough.. so she wanted to sell the house since the house was in her name..she has the every right to do anything with it.. she wanted to sell the house and just give each family 150 thou so that they can all get their own place and move on...which i think is good.. like finally!! they can all get their own house or condo unit to live in.. but no.. ayaw nila because of sentimental reasons.. tapos my loser tito is the one who really wanted to push this kse he's been looking for buyers..tapos nagalit yung eldest and yung tita ko (not the fiscal ha) maybe because nakita nila na parang wala lang sa kanya yung house.. ( i say, he's in it for the money!) and wow.. from what i heard from my cousin, they wanted to sell the house for.. get ready.. 5 million moolahs.. WHOA!!! TALK ABOUT OVERPRICING! tinanong ko nga kung bakit ganon ka-mahal eh.. you know what my cousin said? kse daw yung location daw okay.. kse it was near makati.. like ok!.. if i were to describe it it's not worth that much..the place is so cramped kse they got like half of the place to turn it into a garage (so a garage is 3 meters by 5..so you guys can just imagine how tiny the place is) it has 2 stories and in the 2nd floor, it has 3 tiny bedrooms (which still baffles me..how the hell do they all sleep!).. and that's about all..and oh.. let's not forget about it's location.. it is along a main road where public utility jeepneys and other vehicles pass..so wow.. talk about pollution..all kinds.. noise and air..it is however, near makati as it is near the makati-mandaluyong border bridge..pero to get to makati (if you're commuting), you have to ride the ferry in the pasig river just to cross.. there's no other cheap and normal way.. cheap and normal=riding a jeep..kse walang jeep.. you have to hail a cab and a cab ride costs about 75 bucks going to makati.. if you have a car, yun, mas accessible nga ang makati..
 
eh mas mahal pa nila binebenta yun kesa sa house namin noh.. which is waaaayyy better looking and located.. and is worth it's price.. 

haay.. so yan.. that's me being a mean girl..pero if i wasn't mean, what would other people read here sa blog ko? my blog would be so boring if i was nice.. hehe..

that cute intern *blush* dated aug. 11 , 2006

being the bum that i am, i was the obvious choice to watch over daddy at the hospital.. upon walking in the horribly freaky hall, my paranoia and fear of hospitals just came back to me along with the equally freakish aroma of bleach and disinfectant..

the first night is always just too sick for me..(i swear that i would never work in a hospital!) aside from the fear and dreaded stench, mixed eomotions and sensations come over me just worrying about the patient which in this case my lolo..this in turn made me sleepless..

the morning after is the sleepiest day ever..kailangan bawiin yung puyat to prepare for the dayand the night ahead..my brother came here to accompany me for the night bringing along extra pillows and blankets..he went home early today..i also went home to take that missed bath! (and how i loved that bath!) then i went back to the hospital (wearing my other denim skirt and a plain white shirt) around 11 or was it after we ate lunch?

anyway, there came the cutest and oh so hot intern from FEU..he belonged to a new batch that just arrived at the hospital.."grabe ang cute!" yun agad ang naisip ko.. my lola and i asked him form what school he belongs..i thought na diyan lang siya sa Olivarez but no.. sa FEU pa.. (Kung kailan naman ako naka-alis ng UST!)

anyway, ako yung nakausap niya about daddy..basta.. the next stops he made were all duty + flirting vibes! haha! tinawag pa kong ate! (leche! kung di lang siya cute hehe!) tapos tinanong ni mommy kung ilang taon na siya.. 20??

(sabi niya: "ako po? bata pa po ako. 20 lang po..

 sabay si mommy: "eh ito 18 lang eh, ay hindi 19 lang pala..)

ang lola ko binugaw ako! hahaha!!!..tapos may kasama na siya after..magpapagawa daw siya ng bahay sa kin.. hahaha.. oh well.. shit! kinikilig ako! hahah!! tapos nung duamaan ako sa hallway going to the nurse's station, tinawag pa ko at nagtanong kung may nararamdaman daw si daddy (eh may itatanong lang ako sa nurse) sana pala sinabi ko na si daddy okay ako hindi.. hahaha!! tapos naglakad kami ni daddy sa hallway..nagtanong ulit sabay: "sige po lolo" (haha! whatever he wants to point out!) tapos nung nabanggit namin na aalis na kami tomorrow or dapat tonight.. "ay ganon po? aalis na po kayo?" shit! hahaha! i love him!! hahahha!! hahanapin ko siya sa friendster!..haha..john james h. carandang.. hehe..

the needed alcohol and nicotine fix.. dated aug. 10 2006

the class went here (sa house) for a needed dose of liquor and nicotine and some rekindling of friendship.. unexpected peole also came.. (kat, barry and tim) hindi pala medyo.. talaga pa lang "fresh" from break-up si aiz and si gian.. and wow the sort of tension between them was so obvious.. ginatungan pa ni lou-ann..hahah..oh well..

but despite of all the tension going on.. i had an interesting epiphany..

it's always a custom that some guy friend of mine and me (i don't want to mention his name!!!!) take at least one picture together..so we took a pic as usual.. from my phone and that instant i was feeling a little different about him na.. lalo na when he asked me to send the pic to him via bluetooth.. tapos before he left..he told me.."uy sige jel..uwi na ko..text ka ha..basta text ka..text2 na lang" whatever that means..significant or not, it has put a smile on my face that night..

this entry was written during my looong rest.. june 8, 2006

hay nako..the thing with "the-one-not-to-be-named" grows worse than ever..nawawala pa yung orange lip balm ko.. and i think she got it!..lecheng yan! talagang she went that low to keep up with us kahit wala naman dapat..what a loser! haay nako! ang social climber talaga niya sobra! haay nako!.. i don't even know why we got to be friends with her! goodness! oh well..

anyway, so the thing naman with..eewwwwyy guy..haay nako! isa pa yun..napaka ..argh!!!ang drama na maarte!..very whiney..he whines about things that only a girl would normally complain about.. aargh!!! that wreched day that he went all ranting..buti na lang through YM lang!.. whew! but man! that was so stressful..as in babae lang ata ang nakakaisip ng mga bagay na yun..and he went all "oh i'm such a loser..i'm so depressed..i can't do anything right..laging half-hearted.." and all that crap..goodness! i just replied as frank as i can get.. i told him that it was all his fault and that he's just to egotistic to admit it or that he's just such a wuss to admit it..either of the two, nothing changed.. i don't like him..sibrang turn off pa nung monday.. i went to school to fix my requirements.. so him being the _____ (fill in the blank) that he was, he went to school also.. we went to Hotshots with Jobert to eat our lunch.. and all the time parang si Jobert lang ang kasama ko.. he was "nowhere" to be found.. grabe! how boring!.. as in nakikitawa lang siya kay Jobert.. haay..sobra!..then we met with Aiz.. at itong si Aiz gumawa ng munting issue..exagg! sabi ko nga wala lang yun eh.. which she believes naman.. nanloloko lang daw siya..anyway, muntik ko na samahan si Aiz sa Siao Ling at sa Gateway and man the look on what's his face was all.. (am i cruel or what!) so AIz decided na to let me go and just go there by herself..so yun..i got stucked with him..so we took the usual route to  Glorietta..LRT and MRT.. so the LRT train stopped..and lo behold pag pasok sa loob! shit! ang init! OVEN! grabe! syempre it was humid and hot.. the railings naturally got sticky..so na-OC ako at kumuha ng tissue for the rail..tapos sabay hirit nya ng "sosyal mo naman." argh!!! when will that remark stop!?! tapos sobrang init right? tinuluan pa niya ko ng eewwww.. sweat!! Y-U-C-K!!that moment gusto ko nang masuka sa sobrang..eeewww!!! I mean come on! may handkerchief nga for thateh.. and i have tissue for crying out loud..sana humingi sya..but no! nag sorry na lang.."pawis ko ata yun" eeewwww!!! so pagdating namin sa SM I immediately went to the girls' room to get rid of the eewww feeling and to freshen up..tapos sinamahan niya lang ako sa SM to find stuff.. mostly clothes and shoes..at the nerve of that guy to comment on my choices..eh siya nga tong..nevermind again! and then it happened.. i noticed what every girl notices on a guy..his shoes..is like the shoes of any construction worker! i'm not exaggerating..but it really does look like it..it's soooo dirty!!..i was like.. wow! can i clean your shoes because it's waaay dirty!!..

so  yan.. the ultimate turn off experience.. haha..

this was written during out class outing in anilao..  april 3-5 2006 and it was entitled..

"the judgement day" (why judgement day? because i was a bit confused about a person who was suppose to be with us on that trip.. hehe.. i don't know what to feel for him...)

the judgement day..

actually..di na pala.. it turns out na that person had another out-of-town trip.. sa galera mind you! at nangiggit pa!.. oh well.. na-realize ko na rin na i don't fell anything for him na..buti na lang!.. i just enjoyed this trip with my friends. we all spent it getting our tan..

as usual may naging crush na naman si denise...and how predictable...si jojo who else?..anyway, yun, she was so obvious (nung last night inuman) with all the "pictures" they had.. sobrang pa-cute pa nya..she was so funny and entertaining to watch..haha!..so yun..may something sa kanila ngayon and good luck naman talaga!!

i don't really get that person sometimes..or actually is it i refuse to believe that she's really the way she is? i get pissed off with her because of so many things.. one is when she doesn't mean what she says and says what she means..i hate it when she tells me that we'll go somewhere (may it be at starbucks or glorietta) tapos the next minute she's so lazy to go out.. or simply changed her plans that instant..at madalas niya ko ipagpalit sa mga boys niyang..(nevermind!)but hey i'm not jealous..i actually pity her sometimes..kse minsan wala siyang isang salita..